About Karisma

[revised 11.01.09]

Many people perceive me to be many things in there personal dictionary. I think there is anything I haven’t heard as far as negative titles to belittle me. Slut, porn star, hoe, internet hoe, are some of things I am used to hearing on my internet life and even in my real life. It amazes me how people can find so much time to define someones purpose when they truly have no clue. I been called all types of names, and it wasn’t even triggered by a personal strike against them. I done nothing wrong to them, they just wanted to feel better about themselves by putting me down. In all honesty I’ve become so immune to negative words, I laugh at it. I don’t cry in the dark about it, or rant to my friends about it, or even replay it in my mind after its been heard. Once I hear it, it simply dissolves into my mind and doesn’t transpire into my feelings. In other words I don’t get offended by any of it and perhaps it comes from my childhood life to give me the strength to fight the word battles that I face.

So who is Karisma, who is the real Karisma? Many want to know or perhaps think they know. To begin I must first say there are many chapters of me, many colors that color my personality. I am not just one thing, or just one type, I am multiple things, a combination of many things that combine into one element.

I have been blessed with special gifts, like we all have. I was just one of the driven ones to tap into them and fulfill them to the highest degree. I nickname myself bipolar. Because I have multiple personality’s. I have a driven and focused one, a sexual one, a perky one, a humble one, a tempered one, a loner one, and a quiet one. My moods, switch up at times, more than me changing my panties on a daily basis, but they stay constant between two frames. Loner, quiet and than Perky. I can switch back and forth by a snap of a finger. That is all it takes.

People who know me will say I am kind & caring because I love people and care about their feelings & emotions and always wanting to help. They would also say I am a loner, because many times I like to escape from the world and get into my zone. They will say I’m not friendly with people I don’t know. I think that comes from being raised in the hood, it creates a “don’t trust people persona.” They would say I don;t take no for an answer, when I want something I go after it, full force. They would say I’m driven, because I ve been doing this, pursuing my career for so long. The other sides of me, I’m easily bothered by being around lots of people. I can be at a party for only so long, because too much of a crowd can make me want to crawl in a zone and it irks me. That’s the loner part of me. I believe the loner part was developed from the things that life brought to me. But it truly began from my childhood. They would say I’m quiet and shy, to say the least. I can perform on camera, but live and in person I close up and get intimated.

I have a spiritual side that I am deeply connected and in tune with daily. That surprises many, but behind the sexy pictures carry more than you can imagine. I believe in God solely, fully 100%, and deeply. Since I was a child I believed in the power of God and his son Jesus. I worshiped them and went to them each and every time. It doesn’t come from being raised in a religious background. My mother wasn’t religious, and she didn’t make me go to church, but I do thank God for introducing himself to me at young age, it saved me from a lot. I believe in God for EVERYTHING.

I am a workaholic. I work, work, work really hard at what I do. I put in lots of time, hours, late night hours, endless days, and sacrifices to what I do. I am the Only woman behind my show. I am a 1 woman show. I take my pics, edit the pics, do the videos, edit the videos, web design my website, promote, and in a nutshell, I am the model, the photographer, the editor, the camera woman, the web designer, the promoter, I do it all, and I do it on my own. My days are more than 12 hours at time, and I catch myself sleeping for 3 to 4 hrs a day, with a fridge full of energy drinks to keep me going. I also catch myself being up for 48hrs straight, working at what I do. I guess this is what you do when you truly love something.

I believe in striving to fight; for what you believe in. I believe in working hard in anything you do whether its flipping the burgers at Mcdy’s or getting the best client at a law firm. Working hard is a part of life, and if you work hard your dues get paid.

I am a Go Getter. The more things are challenged the more I fight for it. I don’t take no for something I believe is true to me. There’s a lot I’ve been through with this career of mines as far as obstacles, but the more that came my way, the more I fought back. I am like a wild lion in the jungle, it takes a lot to tame me down. I’ll keep trying till I succeed, and when I fall down I get right back up.

I am a romantic at heart, and many people wouldn’t believe that. I do believe in getting married to the one, one day.

If that is the path God gives me. I believe in love, I just hate the pain part.

I tend to speak my mind a lot, because I feel why hold back your heart let it be known or it will never be expressed. I consider myself to be outspoken.

Many mistake me or confuse their thoughts by my displays, thinking and believing I don’t want a normal life because of the career I am after. . But its like having a 9 to 5, we are what we are in the work hours, we wear our uniforms or carry a job title but it does not describe who we are out of work. It does not define all our roles in life. When you clock out of work, you are not that person when you get home. You are either, a wife, a boyfriend, husband, mother, father, sister, brother, etc. Our careers are simply that careers, so I do want normalcy, of course. I LOVE what I do, its a burning passion, but like in everything in life there’s a time for everything, and I do have the hopes of having a big house with a white picket fence, and a husband with a few babies to match. In the field Im in, I guess I would be more interested in having a marriage like the Will & Jada. or more like Obama and Michelle a strong black supportive couple.

When it comes to t.v., I have to admit, I am not addicted, but I when it is on I dive into America’s Most Wanted, CSI, Forensics, 48hrs, Unsolved,
anything dealing with crime solving. I have huge fetish for the Criminal Justice world.

Do I ever want to have a kid? You may wonder. I LOVE kids, I think they are the most precious innocent thing in the world, there is no comparison. I was the baby in my family, so I wasn’t surrounded by kids, but the passion for them comes naturally. A little me, hah imagine that!

This is me in a small nutshell, there is so much more to be told, that will be foretold in a book format at a store near you. But I hope at the end of this you gained some new sense of me, that I am not just a sexy vixen, that carries a clueless brain, that I’m not just doing this for fun, and that there is a whole lot more to me than what you see. So chapter 2…2 be continued so stay tuned…