Dedication

Heavenly Father my road of journey to happiness has been so long, so exhausting, so energizing, so filled with mixed emotions. This journey was like carrying a 1 ton knapsack book bag on my back and I am climbing the mountain, each day at a time till I see you waiting up there for me. But you know what the walk, and climb was all worth it.

So much has changed, so many different turns has occurred, but with you as my compass, I know that my journey is safe and I will never be lost without you. Lord you have shown me so much, taught me so much, and while I am still your pupil at your class, I know I have passed certain tests of life, all in the help from you. I am now older, I am now wiser, I am now experienced. Life had thrown me a curve ball, but with your heavenly strength, you shown me that you are real, that your love does exist and that you are unstoppable.

Thank you Lord for opening the doors, for me, thank you for holding the doors for me, thank you for picking me up when I fell, thank you for holding my hands through every transition, and I know your love is unconditional, I know your love is unstoppable, its uncontrollable, its undeniable, and thank you Lord for showing that to me.

I feel more closer to you, more pure to you, more connected. Thank you Lord for your blessings and continue to shower me with your gift of love, continue to stand by my heart, continue to show me the light of your happiness, and most of all continue to keep me strong through it all and keep me to blossom the love you’ve blessed my heart. Thank you father, in the name of the son and holy spirit. Amen.

Edited: 05.12.2008

I scream, I yell, I cry till my eyes are blood shot red, and the only person that sees, that only person that heard my cries. You see my pain Lord, You hear my cries, you feel my pain, you understand it all. At times I feel helpless, I feel like if only one moment can take all the pain away, I would feel better but I hear your voice, I feel your love. 2007 has been an experience in a nutshell. Through it I questioned it all, but I know you are standing by my side and telling me that there are blessings in disguise. You made me fall deeper with you faith with the Calvary church. Being there makes me feel more and more closer to you. God I don’t know why certain things happen in my life, but I will continue to trust your faith. Iam only the passenger in this car you drive, and I let you lead the way. I trust you will not get me lost to my mission and i put my faith that you will Only do what is best for me. I know that you only know what is right for me. I know that you will keep close to your heart and you will protect me at all cost. I know you made a plan for me, and by all means Father I will follow it. Thank you for giving me your ongoing strength, thank you for loving me when I felt no love at all, Thank you for being there when I wanted to give up, Thank you for not making me bitter to those that crossed my path the wrong way and Thank you Lord for blessing me in so many ways. Thank You Father.

[Edit: Oct 22. 2010]

My journey throughout these past few years since I last updated has been a tremendous roller coaster. The chapters in my life have went from down to up to back down and in to spiral curls with the experiences that life threw at me. But since I ve last updated, I ve mentally grown Father, you have guided me with your spirit and your undying love. You have sheltered me from pain that had cut my heart so deep. You have rescued me from life fires, where I once thought I would spiritually burn, and it was all over. You have blessed me with another opening in my destined career. You have picked me from the ground where I had once fallen and felt like I was going to mold and die. And since than, Father you have done so much for me, for all I can do is give thanks daily, give praise infinitely, give more love to your name, more joy to your gifts. I am forever grateful. I was once lost, I was once in a dark hole that had covered me with dirt filled with pain and loss of hope. I was once in despair, filled with questions and no answers. I was once confused and morally broken. But because of your one in a million love, it rescued me from all that, your heart was my safety net to fall into, and once again, I am thankful. I continue to attend your home faithfully each week, I continue to give back to those in need with what you have blessed me with, and I continue to trust your love, trust your will, and trust your guidance, for you have always, always known what was best. If I cant say it anymore clearer, thank you Heavenly Father..(whisper)for everything…In Jesus Name…Amen